just the way i am

well, I didn’t get the KUSA position that I wanted. :(  I guess I’ll just have to wait another year. T-T and apply for it my senior year… man, I’m doing nothing here at Emory.  I guess I’ll just have to start joining clubs and stuff.  Things to write on my resume.  I’m definitely disappointed I didn’t get the position, but I know that KUSA will run better.  The executive decision is final, so I can’t say anything. :)

So I just took a nap and… wtf… I had a dream previously and I had met this beautiful girl.  We at first weren’t interested in any marriage of some sort, but this time things changed quickly.  I remember my dream today.  It was the day OF the marriage.  I was dressed rather casually and I remember thinking “where the hell is my suit” and I looked at my bride and we smiled and kissed.  I told her I was nervous, but excited, and she said she loved me.  I thought, “Where are we?  Who is she?  Why am I with her?  She isn’t that pretty.”  As time progressed, my love for her had multiplied the more times I saw her.  Let’s just say she kinda looked like Sonia from Jayesslee, to draw a comparison.  She was stunningly beautiful.  I found myself more and more happy..

Led me to think… Who am I going to marry?  What kind of woman is she?  Where will I be, and what will I be?  What kind of man/husband will I be?  

OMG.  I coulda sworn that I wasn’t going to get an interview!! PTL.

I knew for a fact that there was going to be so many more people that were better qualified, and I was quite indifferent about the KUSA Exec Application.  I couldn’t even try?  Yea, I tried, but half-heartedly.  I was like, “Ehh, theres at least a slim chance I could get an interview” and I didn’t wait for a reply.

I just got the email today saying that my interview is tomorrow! :OOOOO Maybe because I wasn’t really anticipating a response, but this email made me so giddy and nervous at the same time.  Technically, it’ll be my first interview since I’ve been on this campus, and the first time I’m actually trying to get a position in an organization at Emory.

All I could think of is, “This could be the interview to change my life.”  Why?  Because sooner or later, I’m going to have plenty of interviews, only its not going to be people whom I know.  If I’m this nervous and prone to choking, how am I going to do interviews later?  I can’t imagine myself right now.  I’m writing this because I can’t seem to express my emotions properly.  what to do.. what to do.. how are the questions going to be like?? what do i wear?  blah blah blah…..

I don’t know what I’m going to do tomorrow.. What I’m going to wear, or how I’m going to go about answering questions.. Honestly, I don’t even feel prepared.  Hopefully, this will all go smoothly.  I really want this position.  Any position.  in KUSA.  on the EXEC board.

#LGI.

plus, I have a league final game tomorrow.  3 game series.  I’m going to work my butt off the first two so it doesn’t go to game 3, which will run through my interview.  WIN-WIN?! CAN I DO IT?!

#notbymystrength

오늘만킁 행복할 날은 거이 없을 테다..

내가 아직 얘를 좋아한다는 걸 깨닭고 말았다..

그녀랑 하루를 지내며 너무 행복하고 즐거웠다.

그녀랑 해여지기 싫었다.  그녀랑 맨날 봤으면 너무 좋겠다.

그녀는 모를거다.. 나한테 얼만큼 행복하게 만들었다는 걸..

하지만 내가 도저히 같이 있을수 없는 여자다.

너무 예쁘고 너무 너무 사랑스러운 여자다.

나보다 더 좋은 남자를 만날수 있기 때문에…

하지만 이렇게 윤선생은 박하선을 잡았다.

나도 희망이 있을 꺼다.. 

그냥 짝사랑하며 기다리면 때가 올 것 같다.

그녀는 일년이든 백년이든 기다릴수 있는 존재감..

그는 나의 사랑을 계속 빼앗는 여자다.

못 넘을 산 처럼 계속 해매고 있다.

근데 사랑 때문에 해매도 싫지는 않다.

그동안 너무 예뻐져 있다.

어떤 심정인지 누구도 모를 거다.

Attend a SNSD concert. and SNSD’s last concert..

She wowed everyone with her brilliant voice on Britain’s got talent.

Reblog and click the picture.

(Source: sherudonnn)

when a girl leads you to think that she likes you, but in the end, you were really in the friend zone.